Well…sorry that I haven’t updated you all on the status of the job situation…probably because it’s been a very painful process.  I didn’t get the job that I mentioned in my last post…nor did I get the next 6 jobs that I’d interviewed for.

I’ve been job searching for 4 months…that will exhaust anyone I may add and it certainly has exhausted me.  However, I finally did get an offer over a week ago and I start on the 17th (one week from tomorrow).  Don’t get me wrong, I’m glad that I’ve finally landed a new full-time position and I’m grateful for the opportunity, however…I’m a bit uncomfortable w/ the situation.  See, when I interviewed for this position my immediate feeling was that I was totally wrong for the job…so I didn’t think for a moment that I had a chance in hell at getting offered the position.  However, my new boss called me a few hours after the interview and wanted to know if I was OK and asked me if I was up for the challenge…I told him that I’m always up for a challenge, but when I spoke w/ the owner during the interview it seemed to me that she had a very specific person in mind for this position and it didn’t seem to me that I’d cut the mustard in her eyes.  He again asked me if I was up for the challenge…and then proceded to state that if I was that he knows that I can do this.  I was offered the position the next day.

The position I’m taking on is Fleet Administrator for Mile Hi Frozen Foods who is the main distributor for McDonald’s, Chipotle, Einstein Bagels, Boston Market, etc for Colorado and Utah.  I will be taking care of equipment operations which includes trucking permits, bills of lading, licensure, accounting etc.  I’ve been in DOT Compliance for 10 years now…but I’ve always dealt w/ the driver’s compliance…not the operations side of things.  This is why I’m feeling a bit uneasy about it…I don’t feel qualified for the position.  I have no experience in what I’m going to be taking on…I will be starting from scratch…which to be honest, is what I think my new boss wants.  That’s fine…I have no problem learning new things, actually I quite enjoy it, but I also like to walk into a new job w/ some confidence in my knowlege and skills…and I’m not able to do that here.  That makes me a bit uneasy…ya know?

Anyway, the other thing is that even though I’m going to be bringing home more money, it’s not as much as I’d been hoping for.  It’s my minimum requirement…and in saying that I kind of feel like a failure.  Sure…there will be a 90 day review and a raise along w/ a 6 mo. review and raise…but still, the fact that I wasn’t able to land the position under the terms of which I’d wanted makes me feel a bit well…like a failure.  You have to understand that the last full-time position I’d held I was making 10k more annually than I will be at this position…that’s a bit difficult to swallow for me.  I worked hard to get to where I was…and I will again, but it’s difficult to start over.

On a brighter note…I’m extremely excited about Christmas this year! I get ALL of my kids for Christmas this year…which hasn’t happened in 5 years now.  I’ve had them Christmas morning in years past, but then their dad would pick them up and take them that afternoon for his family get together and I wouldn’t see them for a few days.  Not this year though…nope, they are home where they belong!!  They are just as excited as I am let me tell you…to not have to leave on Christmas day and just stay home for the holidays…yeah, they are happy about that. 

I don’t have much to give them this year…but it doesn’t seem to matter much to them, they are so excited about being home w/ Jason & I this year and that just makes it all ok.  They each have a gift that they’ve asked for and we’ve had to skimp on gifts for one another, but as long as they have big smiles on their faces on Christmas morning…that makes everyone OK for me too.

The past year has been filled w/ many things for me…a rollercoaster of sorts.  I’m hoping this next year will be a little calmer.  Life happens when you make plans right?  yeah…always.

I hope that you all have a wonderful holiday season…and here’s to a new year.