Wow…just one more day until April is here.  You know what that means right? Besides the fact that Friday is April Fool’s Day (a great time to prank btw)…OR…that my hubby‘s 30th birthday is next Friday (he’s not looking forward to being this age btw)?  You don’t know huh? Well…here’s a hint for ya.

Yuppers! It’s Autism Awareness Month!  Time to help people understand this epidemic who’ve never heard much about it.  You know that I will be posting on this all month long…just little reminders and informational pieces…with links and such.  It’s so important that we all be well informed about this disorder.

Okay…as far as Jason‘s birthday is concerned…I’m sure that you’re all wondering if I have anything special planned.  Well of course I do!!  What kind of wife do you think I am? I mean…you only turn 30 once!!

I’m taking him here:

The only place in the United States of America where four states meet! Cool huh?!  Jason’s been wanting to visit this location and be in four states at one time…so that’s where we’ll be going.  Of course…I have to stop at other locations in the area as well…I mean, it is a road trip after all.  

So we’ll also be visiting the following locations:

Mesa Verde National Park  – (just outside of Cortez, CO)

Aztec Ruins National Monument - Aztec, NM

Shiprock Pinnacle (off of Hwy 666) NM

Durango, CO

Pagosa Springs, CO

Alamosa, CO

…and a few other cities along the way!!  We’re excited about this road trip! It will be just Jason and I for four days on the road exploring new territory (to us anyway)!!

Don’t worry…we’ll be taking tons of pics of this trip. I promise!  

I have to take my car in for an oil change and such this weekend so that we’re ready to go by next Thursday.  We’ll leave early in the morning and head southwest to Mesa Verde and won’t be back home until Sunday.

Btw…remind me later to fill you all in on the latest news in home hunting.

Okay…I need to get back to work now. Hopefully I’ll be able to visit you soon.

I will not be posting this weekend…so I thought that I would do so now.

Today is Good Friday…a day of remembrance for many…and a solemn one at that for those who do so.

 

However, it is Easter weekend and that means a time to rejoice and enjoy our families and that darn cute bunny that they always show on those Cadbury egg commercials!!  

Whatever your beliefs…enjoy this weekend and have a very Happy Easter!!

 

Main Entry: ²catty
Function: adjective
Inflected Form(s): cat·ti·er; -est
1 : resembling a cat; especially : slyly spiteful : MALICIOUS

Main Entry: ma·li·cious
Pronunciation: m&-’li-sh&s
Function: adjective
: given to, marked by, or arising from malice

 

One entry found for malice. Main Entry: mal·ice Pronunciation: ‘ma-l&s Function: noun Etymology: Middle English, from Middle French, from Latin malitia, from malus bad 1 : desire to cause pain, injury, or distress to another 2 : intent to commit an unlawful act or cause harm without legal justification or excuse synonyms MALICE, MALEVOLENCE, ILL WILL, SPITE, MALIGNITY, SPLEEN, GRUDGE mean the desire to see another experience pain, injury, or distress. MALICE implies a deep-seated often unexplainable desire to see another suffer <felt no malice toward their former enemies>. MALEVOLENCE suggests a bitter persistent hatred that is likely to be expressed in malicious conduct <a look of dark malevolence>. ILL WILL implies a feeling of antipathy of limited duration <ill will provoked by a careless remark>. SPITE implies petty feelings of envy and resentment that are often expressed in small harassments <petty insults inspired by spite>. MALIGNITY implies deep passion and relentlessness <a life consumed by motiveless malignity>. SPLEEN suggests the wrathful release of latent spite or persistent malice <venting his spleen against politicians>. GRUDGE implies a harbored feeling of resentment or ill will that seeks satisfaction <never one to harbor a grudge>.   Welcome to my work environment.

More to the story…

First off…thank you all so much for your supportive comments on my last post.  You have no idea how much it means to me.

Well…since Friday’s bitch session…I’ve spoken to several of the (PMs) Project Managers and to the Operations Managers (their bosses) about the allegations against me.  None of which panned out…they had never heard of any of this until now.  Most of them were completely floored to hear what I had to say…and then were angry when I was done telling them.

Five of the PMs also informed me that when and if I leave the company…they will walk as well.  I’m not quite sure how I feel about that.  I mean…I’m grateful that they feel that strong about my being here…but on the other hand, I feel that I would be responsible for putting others in a bad position.  I don’t want that.

I realize that life isn’t always fair & that we all go through trials…but when it happens and it’s completely unwarranted…that just pisses me off.

It’s good to know that I have people behind me…but unfortunately it’s not going to change my current situation any.  Even if I was to bring this information to the President of the company now…I believe it would have no effect on the situation.  He based this whole thing on hearsay to begin with…believing his “friend” over an employee…so why would he change his mind on just what I have to present.  He wouldn’t.

I know that some of you are probably thinking that it’s worth trying…but I know these people and how they think and work.  Trust me…it wouldn’t do any good.

So that’s where I am right now.  I’m biding time once again…waiting to see what happens next and for a better opportunity to arise.  It will someday…it has to.

I need to vent…this may get ugly

Well that was fun…NOT.  I just got out of the president of the company’s office.  I was brought in there and completely blindsided by my boss and the president on an issue that I obviously had no clue about.

Apparently there have been several complaints made toward me and my “demands” in regards to compliancy issues for the company.  Okay…that’s fine.  However, no one bothered to say a word to me about it, including my boss, until it got to this point.  So I basically got my ass chewed for not being “tolerant enough” toward the field employees.  So according to them, I’m apparently doing my job a bit too well. 

Being a compliancy officer is not an easy task.  I pretty much live in a black and white world when it comes to my job…and they want me to put gray into that aspect, which is easier said than done.  However, I’ll do whatever they tell me to…but that’s usually all that I do on a daily basis anyway and then I get bitched out by someone for it.  Basically I’m in a “damned if I do…damned if I don’t” situation.  I hate that.

They proceded to inform me that people are saying that they don’t even want to call in and talk to me because I’m “difficult” or “not obliging enough” for them.  This stems from me just not babying people.  I can’t help that.  I’m never rude to them or disrespectful…but I have a job to do the same as them and I just want as much help from them as I give to them.  Although…this is obviously too much to ask because I just got done defending myself for over an hour.

So…fine.  I’m told I need “improvement” in this area.  Ok.  We all need some improvement.  So I guess I’m just supposed to not care as much about doing my job as I thought I should.  I also was told that I take things “too personally”.  Okay…well how else are you supposed to take people calling in and complaining to you on a daily basis because they feel that they are exempt to compliancies that are placed on all of us by federal and state regulations…OR…being called every name in the book while being yelled at for something that you really weren’t even involved in..but apparently are now responsible for.  I guess….I’m to blame because I kept my mouth shut and let them finish what they had to say before telling them that I would help them.  They are offended by this?  And yet…I’m not supposed to take the allegations that have been made towards me personally?

I’m very angry right now…but more than that…I’m hurt.  I work my ass off for this company and have for almost ten years! I bend over backwards to help the field employees out as much as I can.  I train over the phone…talk them through filling out forms…make copies of paperwork for them…do research for them…help them out with computer problems…listen to them vent…and on and on.  However…they’ve repaid me by making illigitimate allegations toward me…put words in mouth…and said that I’m not “cooperative enough”….or “tolerant enough” toward them.  So now I’m being asked to “improve” my attitude…and they’re being asked to change nothing.

Fine…so be it.

I do not get paid enough for this shit….no one does.

 

 

All I have to say is…

…being sick sucks!!!

Plans for the weekend?  Yuppers…I have some.  Not anything major …but plans none-the-less.

Today Jason and I are meeting our dear friend for lunch.  I always love that!!

I was informed yesterday by my ex that the DirecTV account that we have (it’s in his name still) is going to be terminated as of today…so now I have to setup a new account.  Not a big deal…but not exactly a fun process.  Jason and I decided that while we’re having to do this…that we’d choose to get the package with no movie channels (it’s cheaper) and get a DVR while we’re at it.  It’s mostly a promotional thing when you sign up for a year of service.  So after work today…we’ll be taking a trip to the store to get our new receivers and account setup…we’ll see how that goes.

Tomorrow…mom and I are going to have our hair cut and then to the spa for some pampering (just nails…a manicure/pedicure for me…and pedicure for mom).  Sounds great to me…especially after this past week.  It’s been so damn hectic at work that I just want to scream!  So…a day of pampering will be nice.  We’re also going to drive through a few neighborhoods and look at houses for sale.  Jason and I will be buying a new house as soon as we can.  Probably not until this time next year will the process truly begin…but, I’m trying to do some research as to decide what neighborhood we’d like to move into. 

We’re meeting with out realtor on Sunday to go over some of the first time buyers information. I have a few questions…but I’ve been doing a lot of research into what programs are available to us.  We have a few options….and a good friend who works for a mortgage broker…so I think that we’ll find a good deal and the home we’re looking for.

Originally we didn’t want to buy here in Colorado…but with the way things have been going and what we’re dealing with financially and personally with the kids…we decided that it wouldn’t be feisable to move out of state right now.  I’m sure that we will at some point in time…but for now, we just want to get out of this house and away from my mother.  Not to be mean…but we need our own space.  There are so many technicalities wrapped up in the home we live in now as far as ownership and all…that we just decided it to be best to move out…let my mom have this house.  That way we can start over fresh and in our place.

I’m looking forward to having that…my own space.  I can tell you one thing…my house will not have clutter!  I’m not a pack rat…so, I will not allow clutter and junk in my home.  Yes…I’m very much so looking forward to that!!

Well…no kiddos this weekend…so hopefully I’ll get the chance to upload those photos for you that I’ve been attempting to do now for a few weeks.  We’ll see.

Have a great weekend!!

I had hoped to be posting pictures for you all to look at, not only of my trip to Florida last month…but of the twins birthday this last Saturday.  However, due to major issues with spyware…I have not been able to do so.   Hopefully I’ll get a chance to in the next couple of days. **crosses fingers**

I’ve been beyond busy with work…but also with parent/teacher conferences.  Two of which have been rescheduled twice now.  I have one tonight and then Jason has one for Dora tomorrow…and I have another thing to go to for Dora tomorrow night.  She’s not doing well at school…so we’re exploring our options to maybe put her into a more non-conventional school setting.  So tomorrow night I will be attending a conference for that.  Then on Thursday I have Corin’s parent/teacher conference.  I also have to meet with the special ed. team at Jonah’s school for him on the 24th about working out a new program for him.  The good news is…Caleb’s doing great!!

I’m so tired….

Just a quick post to tell you that if you missed the Autism programs debuted last week on NBC…you can order a copy here for free! All you pay is shipping and handling. How cool is that?

Oh…and the ASA has issued a new website to help teach parents and family members more about Autism!