November 22, 2003
-
An Apology & Peace Offering
Thank you all for your supportive comments…you are wonderful.
I know that what was said wasn’t said to hurt me…but, it did…very bad. I know that it’s my own insecurities…but the subject happens to be one that I’ve been dealing with for a very long time and still struggle with. I know that I’m the only one who can change that within me, but I guess that it doesn’t help when someone that you adore points it out to you…especially knowing how you feel about it.
Anyway, an apology was offered and accepted along with these.
While…the roses are gorgeous and the apology was sincere, I still am having a difficult time with what was said. Something that I’m dealing with and will eventually get over…but for now it bothers me still.
Other Issues…
Letting Go…
I’m sure that this is all bothering me so much because of the timing…considering the anniversary of my closest friend’s death is coming up on Monday…and it was 2 years ago yesterday that I talked to him for the last time.
I need closure on this very badly…and I’m aware of that. Because he lived in Canada…I was unable to attend his memorial service, so I didn’t get the closure that I need.
I miss him so very much and I wish that he’d never gone on that trip that week…but he was stubborn and always had to do the right thing…and no matter how much I told him that I had a bad feeling about it all and pleaded with him not to go…he did…and I lost him a couple days later.
Too young…only 20 at the time, his whole life ahead of him. It kills me inside knowing that I have four beautiful children and the love of my life…and he’d just found his soulmate for only a brief time before he died. Atleast he had a chance to experience that much…but yet he died before ever saying his vows…or seeing his first child born. Life is certainly not fair.
The only peace I find is that I know that he can hear me…and I know that he can see my children grow. I know that he’s here with me…and I know that I will see him again someday.
A Phone Call…
Jason just called from work…it’s snowing outside. The first real snowfall this year. This is what it looked like outside my front door right after Jason called about a half an hour ago.
And just a moment ago..
I’d post a better pic…but Xanga isn’t cooperating w/ me.
Comments (15)
it is warm now in indiana. seventy. monday it is supposed to snow. gotta love indiana weather. i am sorry to hear someone hurt you so badly they had to send flowers. and thank you very much for the wonderful comment on my site.
wow…….looks nice….and cold….
roses are pretty, sometimes it takes time to get over the hurt.
Ahhh snow. It looks like we’re going to get some of that soon. But it’s still pretttttty warm here in Indiana. It was 70 yesterday and I think it’s the same today. I haven’t been outside yet
I’m sorry that someone hurt your feelings..sometimes it takes the people we love to point things out to us..no matter how hard it is to hear..big hugs!
House pictures are always interesting. Maybe some more family shots around the house outside and hood and work?
Warm and windy here, supposed to be teens tomorrow with some snow. I have so much laundry to do.
I WANT SNOW!! hehe.
and yes, you shoudl come to pittsburgh for the avs game *shrugs* why nto? hehe
The roses are beautiful, but I’m sorry they came as a result of your hurt feelings.
My thoughts are with you concerning the loss of your dear friend. {{hugs}}
Hey! We just got some snow this morning. Welcome to Winter!
-Lorie-
It feels like it is going to snow here today after having 60 and 70 degree weather all weekend!
Crazy!
The roses are beautiful and hope your hurt feelings are beginning to mend. The snow looks beautiful.. Cold and clear here in the south and supposed to be 29 tonight.. Bundle up everyone!
and I’ve been waiting and waiting for my snow. hmph. it’s just not fair.
I know what you mean about letting go. I lost one of my best friends a little over a year ago, and I can’t even remember the last thing I said to him. it’s sad how it takes losses like these to make me appreciate what I do have with the people I do have.
It’s gonna have to get a lot colder before it snows where i am– I’m hoping, as always, for a white Christmas…
and the snow here came only 48 hours after it had been 70! and now we’re all sick… blah…
love you honey
Hugs and blessings to you and yours.
Hi ya Doll. I’m sorry if someone hurt your feelings.
I wish that wouldn’t happen! But it does here on xanga… apparently some people aren’t sensitive to other peoples feelings. Ive seen it many times.
Winter! Oh…. My! I won’t be seeing any of that white stuff here in Florida. LOL Or those freezing temperatures! Nothing but here.
I’m sorry I haven’t been around for awhile. It’s been hectic here with people from the north coming and going. It makes for busy days and then I’m too tired at night to even check my computer! I’m going to try to get better and make the rounds more faithfully. I miss everyone and often wonder what’s happening in their lives. ((((((((((((Hugs)))))))))))))